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I Climb a Mountain

I Climb a Mountain

Yesterday, as I contemplated a tall stack of work on the desk of my home office, I thought, “I can never finish this.”

Then I remembered a story from my past. It’s one I’ve shared before in People Tools, but because it illustrates an important lesson, I believe it’s worth re-telling.

When I was thirty my good friend John talked me into doing something I had never done before, or since.  It was a three day backpacking trip, and on our journey I learned a significant life lesson that has remained with me for the past fifty years.

On the first day of our adventure we climbed a twisting trail which cut back and forth across a lovely brook strewn with slippery rocks.  My sleeping bag and spare clothing were on my back.  John, more experienced, carried everything else, including a small stove.

At sundown we reached our campsite and pitched our tents beside a deep blue lake in the high Sierras.  There were only a few bugs, and John assured me that no tarantulas lurked nearby, waiting to crawl into my sleeping bag while I slept.

Even though I was exhausted, I did not sleep well that night.  I wasn’t accustomed to the 9,000 foot altitude, and I had forgotten to ask John about black widows.  I woke often, gasping for breath.

The next morning, as we enjoyed breakfast, John pointed to a mountain peak.

“”That’s Army Pass,” he said.

‘Uh huh.”

“That’s where we’re going to climb today.”

“Excuse me, John.  Does ‘we’ include ‘me’?”

“Of course.  You’ll love it.”

It was time for a serious chat.

“John, that mountain is towering over us and its way up in the sky.  I’ve never hiked as much as I did yesterday, I didn’t sleep well, and I’m tired.  Why don’t you climb the mountain yourself, maybe even visit the leprechauns if you like. I’ll relax and enjoy the fresh scent of pines while I watch the little fishies swimming in the lake.”

“Alan, it’s an easy climb.  I’m sure you can make it.”

“To the top?  No, I can’t.”

“We can go at your pace.”

“What does that mean?”

“The trail has a lot of switchbacks.  We can walk slowly, and you can stop to rest whenever you want to.”

This was John’s version of the Godfather – an offer I couldn’t refuse.  But still, I asked for clarification.

“So if we’ve hiked for two hours, or even for only two minutes, we can stop and come back down if I like?

“Any time.”

“No penalty,”

“None at all.”

Damn!  I felt trapped.  Encouraged, but trapped.

“And I’ll carry lunch,” he said.  “So you don’t have to carry a thing.”

“Yeah, except myself!”

We started out.  I set a very slow pace.  The switchbacks weren’t too steep, and I only needed to stop to rest after every other one.  John kept talking and reminding me to admire the scenery as we climbed.

We left at nine am.  Shortly before noon, walking a little ahead of me, John said, “We’re at the top.”

And we were.  I had actually climbed a mountain in fewer than three hours.  Well, not all of the mountain.  We started from the lake, which itself was pretty high.  But I felt a huge sense of achievement. I had accomplished something I never thought possible, something I wouldn’t even have tried without John’s encouragement and offer to let me walk at my own pace.

I reflect back on that experience often, especially when I face a task which seems insurmountable, as I did yesterday.

I’ll bet that in your life you’ve climbed a few mountains of your own. Perhaps you’ve been joined by an encouraging friend.

We climb a mountain every day.  Hopefully, each day we remind ourselves to enjoy the view.

Alan

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Walking Down Stairs

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Walking Down Stairs

Before I walk down stairs in my home, or anywhere else, I stop for a moment, grip the railing, and focus my attention.  In contrast, when I watch a TV show, I usually do something else at the same time, such as read a book.

Why the difference?

The difference is that a TV show doesn’t really matter, and if it does I can rewind and watch a replay.  But if I fall down the stairs, there is no redo.  A broken bone is a broken bone.  So when I walk down stairs, or drive, or cross a busy street, I always pay strict attention.

Years ago I was walking down stairs at a friend’s house. Even though I was holding onto the railing, I tripped about six steps from the bottom. Instinctively I grabbed the railing with both hands. Unfortunately, the part of the handrail that I grabbed was intended for decoration, and it wasn’t firmly attached.  I clung to it even as my body hit the bricks at the bottom of the stairs.  Ouch!  I screamed, and everyone in the house came running. I wasn’t badly hurt, though I suffered a deep bruise that took months to heal.

Luckily I have strong bones, or so my PE teacher in middle school told me when I was hit squarely on the ankle by an errant baseball bat.

Hanging out at home for the past month and a half, I’ve been paying attention to something else.  I like to gaze out at the beautiful garden in back while I watch the news on TV in the family room.  I’ve been noticing the trees, the ivy, and the many different hues of green.

I discovered a scrubby lemon tree even though it must have been there for years.  It has more lemons than the large, now barren, lemon tree I usually poach for lemons to flavor my salmon salad (salmon, mayo, hard boiled eggs, and lemon juice).

The trumpet tree with long yellow flowers dangling from its branches has now fully bloomed, seemingly before my eyes.  Last week it was green.  Today it’s laden with bright yellow flowers.

I also pay closer attention to what is around me when I take walks in the neighborhood, something Daveen and I try to do each day.  Tonight I finished most of my 4,000 daily steps by pacing in my home, while gazing outside. Observing the outdoors made walking inside more fun than just going through the motions.

I feel a closer kinship with the garden, having carefully observed it every afternoon since the middle of March.  I also better appreciate the tall trees in front of the house, where now a few curled brown leaves remain, to be gradually replaced by tender green leaves of Spring.

I always wonder how I can squeeze the most from my life.

Paying attention helps.

Alan

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Be Your Own Best Friend

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Be Your Own Best Friend

Most of the conversations I have each day are with myself.  These often start the moment I wake up with, “I wonder how much I weigh this morning,” or “What am I going to eat for breakfast?”

If I expect to have a difficult conversation with someone, I often practice silently to help me crystallize what I want to achieve, and to help me organize the right words.  Sometimes, as a result, I decide that it’s best to not have the conversation at all.

I no longer bother myself with any internal conversation involving generalized self-blame (“You’re stupid,” or “You’ll never be able to lose weight.”), and I rarely discourage myself, other than momentarily. (“This pandemic will ruin everything.”)

During the past month I’ve had more telephone conversations than usual, mostly to receive or give advice, or to cheer up friends. In one recent conversation, my friend Roberta offered me an idea which she often uses herself, especially with her children.

She said, “Whenever a family member is talking s**t to himself or herself, I ask, ‘Would your best friend talk to you that way?’”

Think about it. A friend is supposed to build you up, not tear you down.  A friend, especially a best friend, should encourage you even while being realistic. I’m sure you would do the same for them.  Friends are supposed to be a source of support, not merciless criticism.  They should be available for advice, or just to listen when that’s what you need.

As Roberta suggests, treat yourself as your own best friend.

Today most of us are “sheltering in place” either by ourselves, with family or with close friends.  In any case, we have the opportunity to talk to ourselves even more than usual.  So let’s keep it positive.  As my father often said to me, “Alan, you should be your own best friend.”

If not now, when?  Let’s talk the walk.

Keep safe.

Alan

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